Podcast Notes: The Weight of My Own Breath

The sky always makes me feel at peace & reminds me I am so small in a world so big. <3

With everything that is happening in the world around us, the smallest things can feel very heavy on us. Sometimes it’s not the big, obvious storms but the whistling wind of simply existing in such a time, with such privileges.

I wanted to sit with that feeling this episode and really show with vulnerability what it looks like, sounds like, and feels like to be so overwhelmed even with things that are not being done or affecting you in particular. I know alot of us can relate to that feeling, especially as of recently. I didn’t want to rush part the feelings and invalidate them, even though that’s easy to do when you’re in a place of privilege. I know for me, I freaking always feel so much shame and guilt for needing a break mentally and emotionally sometimes. Acknowledging the feelings and looking at them straight on helps us understand ourselves and what we need. Sometimes, acknowledging that there are days when the silence has its own weight, and that’s okay!

Recording this felt like opening a page directly from my journal and reading it in front of the class. These are thoughts I literally only share with my friends, if they even get to hear from me. When I get in this dark, doom-like headspace it is sooo easy to just allow myself to slip away and not interact with my community. I don’t always want to say these things out loud but release is needed. We must bring our worries and stresses to God like He tells us too (Matthew 11:28) and for me that is physically saying them out loud, handing them over loudly.

My hope is that if you’ve been carrying something quietly, this conversation feels like a hand reaching across the table, reminding you that you don’t have to carry it alone.

xoxo,
Paige C.

You can listen to this episode here: 🎧 The Weight of My Own Breath

And if you want to sit with more of these reflections, my poetry book Whispers Between the Pages is out now. You’ll find it on Amazon or directly at heartofthepaige.com.

I’ll be sharing more pieces of my heart over on Instagram and TikTok too. For podcast and writing updates, come find me at @heartofthepaige. For the everyday things, little glimpses of life and me just being Paige, I’m at @paiigeclst.